You see almost 3 years ago in July my great-grandma (moms grandma) passed away. She had a couple heart attacks before so the doctors suggested her to have surgery. She was 80 years old and her body was too weak to overcome the surgery so she passed away two days before turning 81. Of course I was hurt because I would no longer be seeing my great grandma anymore but it wasn't too bad emotionally as compared to my mom since they were closer. However, I wish that I could be confident and say that 'I know that my great grandma is in heaven with Jesus' but unfortunately that's not the case. I didn't have that close enough relationship with her to assure myself that. Yes sometimes I wish I could've done something to change that but only God knows why, so I try not to give myself a hard time about that.
With my my grandma just turning 81 and needing surgery it's almost like a flashback. Except this time I want to be sure that my grandma is going to see Jesus! It's a little more emotional for me especially since this is my grandma, the one who I grew up with, who would babysit me and give me my 'domingo' as us Mexicans call it. So lately it's just been on my heart to somehow be able to reach out to my grandma and express a little more gratitude towards her. She's a catholic woman and can be a little stubborn at times but I'm willing to take on that challenge as long as I know that she'll be face to face with the God of heaven.
It's always nice to hang with my grandparents and hear their silly jokes, and how my grandpa jokes around lovingly with my grandma. The best part was when I sang about three versions of happy birthday songs (happy birthday, cumpleanos feliz, & las mananitas) to her and played my ukulele. I was a bit nervous cause I'm not a big fan of getting attention but then I had to remember it was for her happiness. It really meant a lot to me singing those songs for her and just spending that time with her. Happy Birthday grema :)
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